Archive for May, 2008

ugh… sometimes life.. ugh

I am writing this on a computer that is slow, and is not letting me do everything that I need to do… and so, I am frustrated… My laptop was having some problems over the weekend that seemed to solve themselves, but, alas today it took a nosedive. It looks like it might finally be finished… I won’t know until the I.T. guy will have time to look at it, which might be some time from now…

The whole process has just deflated me… really took the wind out of my sails… sometimes in life we are just clipping along and things seem to be fine, and then… ugh… life just kind of happens… you know?

I need to be thankful.. I have so much… I am not stranded on an island, I am not starving, I am not completely without internet access, or even access to a computer (obvious statements, as i am on the internet posting this… )

I have been dealing with some fear issues in my life… something that apparently comes with the territory of having trust issues…

I read a verse this morning that really impacted me… so I thought I would share it with you…

Psalms 16:5 “LORD, you have assigned me my portion and my cup; you have made my lot secure.”

I love the word “secure.” I want to be secure… unafraid… shored up… When I think about “my cup”, I can’t help but think about Jesus praying, if this cup shall pass… and there is a sense of destiny in this verse… God has assigned… given us marching orders… and he has made it safe and secure… Helped me this morning feel a little more at peace…

blessings
sj

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L.U.I.

I apologize to my loyal few readers… I have been running in a ton of directions and reading a ton, so I have not been writing as much…

Yesterday’s message at church was really good and got me thinking. We were studying in Ephesians 5:18 and so I started looking around to different versions to see how it looks…

Here is how it reads in the NIV; “Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit.”

The pastor made a comment about how when someone is drunk, we say that they are “under the influence.” I love the idea of thinking about living my life “under the influence” of the Holy Spirit.

I like some of the language used in the NLT; “Don’t be drunk with wine, because that will ruin your life. Instead, let the Holy Spirit fill and control you.”

As many of you who have read consistently, or know me at all, know that I struggle consistently with control issues… relinquishing control of my life to Jesus as the Lord and King of my life… it is a constant battle… As anyone who has either been under the influence of alcohol, or has been around someone who is, you know that the alcohol truly controls the person. It affects their behavior and impairs their decision-making process.

The comparison here is, in the same way that you know alcohol has the power to control and affect you and those around you… what if we allowed ourselves to operate under the influence of the Holy Spirit… It would affect our behavior and our decision-making.

Another fun version would be the message “Don’t drink too much wine. That cheapens your life. Drink the Spirit of God, huge draughts of him.” So we are talking about Jesus on Tap. This is good stuff.

I thought about introducing different “offense” cards… BUI… Behaving Under the Influence, SUI… Serving the Influence… or LUI… Loving Under the Influence.

Just a thought

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Brand Inconsistency

I was at the mall the other day wasting time. I had left church, eaten some very greasy mall-food-court-chinese food… (why is it so good?) I had walked around the mall and got a tall coffee-of-the-day from Starbucks and sat on a bench in the mall to do some reading. I ended up not reading but just enjoying some people-watching on the bench. It was mother’s day and so it was interesting to see the dynamic of father’s who had their kids out and away to give mom some time off; some moms and kids walking together; some kids doing last minute shopping for mom.

I looked over at the closest kiosk to where I was sitting. It was for a national cellular phone service provider. I looked over and saw the gentleman working there on the land line telephone in his kiosk. I thought to myself, what does that say about what he is serving. It would be the equivalent to me teaching an aerobics class while eating an ice cream sundae.

I read a quote the other day from Albert Schweitzer, it was something along the lines of “Example is not the main thing in influencing others: it’s the only thing.” I am reading this book called “UnChristian” and it is amazing. I highly recommend it. It is about the perception of Christianity in our culture.

If we look at Christianity as a branding, I know I have some inconsistencies… guess I need to hang up the phone at the kiosk, or put away the sundae, or what other abused analogy can I throw in here… hahaha…

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Something I am not good at doing…

I fear that those who know me well might have several suggestions about what this blog is about. There are several possible answers to this title. But there is one thing that I recently became painfully aware of.

Romans 14 NIV

Accept him whose faith is weak, without passing judgment on disputable matters. One man’s faith allows him to eat everything, but another man, whose faith is weak, eats only vegetables. The man who eats everything must not look down on him who does not, and the man who does not eat everything must not condemn the man who does, for God has accepted him. Who are you to judge someone else’s servant? To his own master he stands or falls. And he will stand, for the Lord is able to make him stand.

One man considers one day more sacred than another; another man considers every day alike. Each one should be fully convinced in his own mind. He who regards one day as special, does so to the Lord. He who eats meat, eats to the Lord, for he gives thanks to God; and he who abstains, does so to the Lord and gives thanks to God. For none of us lives to himself alone and none of us dies to himself alone. If we live, we live to the Lord; and if we die, we die to the Lord. So, whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord.

For this very reason, Christ died and returned to life so that he might be the Lord of both the dead and the living. You, then, why do you judge your brother? Or why do you look down on your brother? For we will all stand before God’s judgment seat. It is written:
” ‘As surely as I live,’ says the Lord,
‘every knee will bow before me;
every tongue will confess to God.’ ” So then, each of us will give an account of himself to God.

Therefore let us stop passing judgment on one another. Instead, make up your mind not to put any stumbling block or obstacle in your brother’s way. As one who is in the Lord Jesus, I am fully convinced that no food is unclean in itself. But if anyone regards something as unclean, then for him it is unclean. If your brother is distressed because of what you eat, you are no longer acting in love. Do not by your eating destroy your brother for whom Christ died. Do not allow what you consider good to be spoken of as evil. For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking, but of righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit, because anyone who serves Christ in this way is pleasing to God and approved by men.

Let us therefore make every effort to do what leads to peace and to mutual edification. Do not destroy the work of God for the sake of food. All food is clean, but it is wrong for a man to eat anything that causes someone else to stumble. It is better not to eat meat or drink wine or to do anything else that will cause your brother to fall.

So whatever you believe about these things keep between yourself and God. Blessed is the man who does not condemn himself by what he approves. But the man who has doubts is condemned if he eats, because his eating is not from faith; and everything that does not come from faith is sin.

As I read through this scripture, there are several things that come to mind. I had a situation with someone that brought this scripture to mind. It is a situation that left me awestruck. It was a situation between myself and what I would consider to believe is another Christ-follower. We share differing opinions on something that I would have never in a million years guessed that we would have ended up having a little disagreement about. It is really insignificant what we were talking about.

My problem with doing what the bible says in this situation is that I truly believe that it is unfair. It is unfair because my way is right. I still want to be on the throne of my life, and really I want everyone to agree with me. At the core of the problem is a situation that I have with God being in control of my life. Because, if I really understood that it wasn’t about me, and if I lead my life in a way where I saw others the way that God did, I would realize that they were more important to me than anything else, and specifically more important than myself.

So, I need to get my proverbial panties out of a bind and suck it up and realize that if I am supposed to be about other people, and other people have a lower threshold on certain areas of their lives, then I need to respect it… not a lot of gray area or confusion about what the scripture said.

To any of the people who I have offended in the past, I apologize.

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sorry… been a little while…

As is the trend, I am either traveling or reading a lot; both major causes for a lack of content on my blog…

Both are true. I have been reading a lot… and for those who have known me for a long time, you know that reading at all is a major change, but, it is stifling how much I have been reading and even the pace at which I have been reading. I have been caught in a trap though, I read these books that reference other books and then I want to read them as well and it seems as though it will be never-ending…

Last week I traveled to Nashville, my home, but not my home now, which made the trip a bit surreal. A word that I have been using a good bit lately, because it is appropriate. i.e. I had a conversation with a guy that was surreal. This guy was an 18 year old college freshman who is studying philosophy, which makes me jealous that I didn’t think to go that route when I was his age. It was a great conversation about school and what he wanted to do with his life. The surreal part is that the last time we talked he was probably sitting on my lap because he was 8 the last time that I saw him. I know that I have changed a good bit in 10 years away, but, his 10 years has been significant. Surreal.

I am really anxious for the summer to get here and the staff part of my job to get fully underway.

I have also been realizing that I am really horrible and realizing when God is being amazing. I prayed about some financial woes and thought, okay, I am not going to think about this anymore. And then God goes ahead and shows up bigtime… and I forget to rejoice… well at least not immediately… when will I get better and it happen immediately? soon?

Hope you are all well and know that my internet accessibility is limited at best so be patient, but please keep coming around…

sj

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